Good Friday

Have a good Good Friday peeps!


This year we are doing something different. Instead of staying in Sydney, we decided to go on a short trip down south. The kids sure are excited (they woke up and got cheeky very early in the morning)!!

We enjoyed the morning sun and the scenic drive down south looking at the hills and mountains, green pasture, meadows, cows, and random stuff on the road as well. Kids are pretty easy to please on this sort of trip. There are just so many things to look at in the first 1 hour at least :p

 The moment D saw a caravan, she wouldn't stop looking for it and kept asking where it went. The moment we saw a dog on a ute, the kids couldn't stop shouting and shrieking in excitement "anjing!!!! Woof woof!!" Aaaaawwwwhhh, so cute!!!!



In that very moment, I felt so blissful and at peace.

Everything feels right and are in their own places (why does this sound OCD? O.o?)



5 minutes later, not so much =___='


I repeat.

The . kids . Couldn't . Stop . Shouting . AND . Shrieking . In . Excitement .


Shouting by itself is fine. Shrieking every once is a blue moon is fine. But, shouting and shrieking for 5 minutes straight in a small contained area? Get me out of the car!!!! @_@'

Then I realised something at the utmost importance (not).


I am getting old



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Being a mom of two makes me old. Don't get me wrong; I am still young and not even in my 30s, but having kids drained a lot of my energy and patience.. especially when things became out of my control and the Momzilla in me starts roaring in frustration.. and this, my friends, has changed my personality from being a bubbly adventurous girl to be a grumpy old lady who loves being in her very own quiet space (which, obviously, is non-existent with a 4 and 2yo girls chirping their way around the apartment) ~_~'


However, these moments are very precious as they grow up too fast! So, I am learning to enjoy all of the ups and downs of parenting. All only with God's help..


When we first had D, I wasn't sure why God has given us such a precious baby when I felt inadequate to be a mom. Years passed, then the eureka moment finally kicks in! Having kids is my training ground. My training ground to rely more on God's providence, to rely on God for strength, to become more patient and compassionate, to learn to be selfless, to see God's grace in a clearer lens as we are like kids too in so many ways!

We rebelled, we sin on a daily basis, we most often want to be our own boss and we all need grace.

While we were still sinners, Christ died for us. While we reject God, He sacrificed Himself to pay for our wrongdoings. All of this, is so we could be His children..


Such an amazing God who is also just. :)

Somehow for some unknown reasons (on the scenic drive while we enjoy the morning Sun and God's great creations), I kept imagining that day in Gethsemany and the possible timing of how things unfold on the actual good Friday 2k years ago. My heart ached, I felt terrible for the injustice and punishments that Jesus Christ had to endure just so we could be made guiltless when the end of the world has come and God came to judge us. All this, so there is someone who could defend and speak on our behalf, our LORD Jesus Christ. :)


By the way, I must be on FIRE now that I am posting for 2 days in a row!


This MOM is on FIREEEEEE *Singing This Girl Is On Fire*

Graduation~

Super late post from 2011:

Hi all! :D :D :D

It's been half a year since the last time I updated this blog! wow, time sure flies.. @.@'
*cough* to be honest, I've actually forgotten that I have this blog.. till when one of my friend told me how entertaining my blog is. and I went "o yeahhhhh.. I have a blog!! :P " and that has somehow made my day. lol.

Anyway, the topic of this entry is graduation! Yess! The time to toss the hats is back!! (well, at least, for my flat mate. I've got my turn already.. :P) which means that the routine to get and organize a bouquet/ graduation gift is back on!!! ^^ yeahh!!

Do you have bad dreams when you are scared of something? Say, dreaming about failing a subject before having your final exams? or perhaps, dreaming about showing up late during the exam day?

Well.. I know I did!! Though in my case, I dreamt about showing up late for my graduation ceremony. Even worse, I missed out my own graduation ceremony in my dream @.@!! Boy! It was scary!

I was too excited I guess. :P

The world of motherhood

Everybodyyyy, meet Dory, the baby whom I couldn't wait to meet 5 years ago! :) well, she looks completely different now that she is 4y+

Well, how life has changed completely for me was unimaginable when i wrote my last post. From the pain of childbirth(s), natural births without epidural, to poonamis, to be bitten while breastfeeding, to have my kids pooing on the carpet or on the toilet floor while taking a shower (and many more weird happenings), all of these finally made me realise how challenging it is to care and nurture little humans while simultaneously keeping my sanity at bay. @_@'

As i have mentioned before, D is now 4+... and now, she has a little sister, A. Although none of my kids are babies anymore, and things seem to be easier, I am confidently saying there were lots of moments i had no idea how to parent my kids effectively. 

Why is that?

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well... Kids are naturally good detectives. They sort of know how to push your button and they know how to excel in it. How? Well, no one gets better at things without practicing, aye? Unfortunately, they seem to be very diligent of doing trial and errors with us parents on a daily basis. Not only that, they could also smell your uncertainties, fears and sluggishness and try to sway you away from your original intentions.. like what happened tonight. 

Context: it was night time.. the kids were high from watching Pocoyo and having ice cream for dessert. Truly, a BAD combo before bed time. 

Dad: "Bed time girls, give a good night kiss, then off to bed!"

D and A: *run run run, climb up to mummy and daddy's bed to give a kiss.. well, at least D did this while A was trying to get her way out of it. This alone took quite a bit of effort from us parents to get kisses from A*

2 mins later... 

D: "Mummy, I'll give you a body massage" *giving a massage to mum's back, probably thinking that if she does this, Mummy will forget it is bed time already and will let them stay up a weeeee bit longer.*

Me: *enjoying the massage and wishing it's not bed time yet, until... 

A: *Joins in and start patting me on my back which became a drumming competition with D on my back* boohoooo... now my back hurts even more 😢😢😢

Dad: "enough, enough, bed time, go!" *feeling sorry for me*

If only this happens during day time, I'd be more than happy to have them rolling on my back. :D 

Hmmm... what to say... 

Just a thought.

Having kids is truly one of the most confusing thing ever. There are so many sacrifices to be made yet it feels so rewarding. They bring you so much joy that made you feel all of the worry and effort are worth it. They make you tired during the day that you long for the night time to come quickly, yet when they are away you miss them so dearly. On some days you feel like putting them up on Ebay, on some other days they are ever more so precious in your sight. They are human, and so are you.. but being kids, they are very quick to forgive unlike us adults. This made me realise on how much better kids are at giving grace and mercy than us, adults. We learn a lot from their compassion to others, from their curiousity on how things work, from how they get to just stop and enjoy the moment, and from reflecting what they have been exposed to. They are mirrors from God! Many times I was annoyed by the things my kids do which unfortunately they learnt from me. This gives me opportuniy to reflect upon myself and to change for the better as well.. 

Anyway, nighty night! Time to doze off now that my 2 kids are down!

Oh, and have a good Good Friday :)