my brain is fried..

It has been a long time i don't feel as blue as now.
well.. it's great actually..
it's amazing to experience how does it feel when u're ignored by ppl u care about.
It's great to realize how big the impact we can make to ppl around us.. whether it's good or bad..

just a simple question or care can encourage people..
to make their day to be one of the best ever..

when the downfall comes, u just feel like running away.
running away from all your problems when there seems to be no way.

u feel like talking to someone. Anyone.
but it turns out that the time is not right.
don't blame it on the person..
but, being patient with time is not easy.

I feel like quitting everything I'm doing..
but there is a voice saying that God is not done yet with me..
to fulfil His purpose in me.
But i kept asking.. What is my calling???
Why am I here?
Well.. to be sure, I'm here with a purpose..
to glorify His name and spread the gospel..

But why the path looks so uncertain?
There are lots of stumbling stones..
and though there are many companies, still, i feel alone..
or maybe, it's just me who's feeling down.
down to the bottom.. too tired to get up.

I know that I'm not supposed to feel this way..
but sometimes, it's hard to control your mood.. your emotion.. your feelings..


I dunno what has got into me.

I've been writing endlessly..

I could write this thing for the entire night.
But I'm tired.. mentally and physically..

Thus, please don't remind or correct me for any grammar or spelling error.. No. Not for now..
I'm stopping now, just because i have to do it.

or else, I'll ended up getting frustated when the dawn has come.

G'nite..

toilet bowl= dangerously dangerous..

hola semuaaaaaaa.. huahahahahh..
Jiwa ngeblog gw uda kembali lagi setelah mengelana begitu jauhhh...
but then, tiba2 ada 1 problem. which isss...

I dunno what to write.

is it a common problem? well, i guess it is!
anyway..

i just wanna let u know that.. akhir2 gw agak bermasalah ama toilet gw..
I mean, toilet bowl gw. seolah2 gw musuhan gitu.. (actually, it's totally my fault sih.)

gw inget banget waktu gw masi SMA. Gw ketawa ampe ngakak pas denger kalo bbrp temen gw bisa unintentionally nyemplungin hp mereka ke toilet bowls di sekolah, di mall, dirumah, dimanasaja (dan kapansajaaaa). Anyway, nope, hp gw ga nyemplung ke toilet bowl kok. no. not today. and (hopefully) not tomorrow.. or the day after.

tapi, sebagai gantinya, there are some stuff yang bisa tiba2 terjun bebas ke toilet bowl dirumah gw.

korban pertama: tissue toilet.

It was so huge (and New!!! Huhuhuhu). korban ini tadinya sedang bertengger dengan alimnya diatas loundry bag di sebelah toilet bowl. Dannn, tiba2 kesenggol oleh diri saya, korban langsung terjun bebas kedalam toilet bowl.
Peribahasa "sambil menyelam minum air" langsung dipraktekkann.
Hal ini terjadi pada pukul 8.27 pagi WM (Waktu Maroubra), dan langsung di pensiunkan ke tong sampah terdekat.

I was like"aaaaaaaaaaaaaarghhh!!!!! Nooooooo!!!!!!" n*geleng2 dengan liar*

Korban kedua: W juliet.

Datz it. I'm not telling u itu jilid keberapa.. TT.TT rasanya merana banget (dan jijaiiii). Ga lagi2 d nyentuh itu buku. *merinding*.
kurang lebih, detail kejadiannya mirip. hanya saja,

me: "lalalalala.." *ngaca*
suaraTakDikenal: "p l u n g..."
me: *loading* "suara darimana itu?" *mata ngelirik ke asal muasal tpt buku itu diletakkan.


and it's gone..



me: "aaaaaaaaaaaaarghhhhh!!! Not againnnn??!!"

tebak saudara2 sekaliannnn.. buku itu nyemplung (begitu aja) tanpa gw apa2in. disentuh kaga, disenggolpun juga kaga!!!

buku ini tidak terjun bebas. Buku ini cuma meluncur dengan bebasnya dari puncak tumpukan baju2 diatas loundry bag. My fault jg.. coz gw naro w juliet diatas baju2 tsb.

Perihh.. pedih rasanya..
rasa sakit di dada..
saat kulihat benda2 berluncuran ke..
keee...
...
oke. ke tempat pembuangan akhirr (read: toilet bowl) -> not the best alias name ever. But, whatever..

toliet bowlku, oh toilet bowlku..
apakah salahku??
sehingga kau renggut sisa masa depresiasi asset2 toiletku?

Fin~


ah, tauk ah. capek bikin puisinya.. bayanginnya aja uda beribu rasa dihati [jijai ya iya, berasa dodol juga iya, nyesel jg iya (banget, malah) nano nano abisss.. ramai rasanya]

Pesan Moral: Toilet bowl.. memiliki fungsi lain apabila hal2 mentioned above really happens in your toilet. Waspadalahhh!!!!

inti kata: Toilet bowl=irritatingly dangerous for your stuff (if u dun keep them properly)
PS: maapkan daku klo ngeblog masalah benda2 nyemplung toilet/b. coz some ppl do experience it..

Baby can I hold you tonight - Boyzone

well.. got this note from one of my friends.. And, it seems interesting. So, here i am. answering these questions with absolute nonsense answers.. :P Yet, I'm still doing it! Woww...

Well.. here are the rules.
1. Put your music player on shuffle (entire music library)
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS!
4. Tag as many friends as you want who might enjoy doing the game as well as the person you got the game from. -> facebook only

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IF SOMEONE SAYS "IS THIS OKAY" YOU SAY?
You are my hiding place - selah

WHAT WOULD BEST DESCRIBE YOUR PERSONALITY?
Yosemite - Damonte. (??? ini lagunya quite deppressingg... )

WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
pandangi langit malam ini - jikustik (orang yang suka bengong, i guess? hehehehe)

HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
Silent Worship - Handel (wowwww... Lagunya relaxxxx abisss)

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
Engkau indahhh.. (... ga ngerti d.. )

WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
KasihMu sempurna (hmmm.. not bad.. that's rite!!)

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
Pretty baby - Eric Benet (woohooooooo!!!!!)

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
The more I get to know you.. (huahahahahahhh... true..)

WHAT IS 2 + 2?
Symphony No. 3 in E-flat major, Op. 55, "Eroica" - Scherzo: Allegro Vivace BY Nicolaus Esterhazy Sinfonia (dikiiiiiit lagi bener.. uda beda2 tiphissshhhhh)

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
Janji Tuhan by Rizaldy Tallo (well.. datz about it!!)

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Sometimes when we touch by Rod Stewart (o.O wow!)

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
Down by the riverside by James Morrison.. (lalalala... merenung ato tidur2an doang ya di pinggiran kali? ato dance lala lili? hmmm...)

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
Distance by Karsh Kale (wekkk!!!! Ga suka ini lagu.. kok bisa ada di itunes gw si??)

WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
hold fast by mercyme. (... lol. ^^)

WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
Ajar kami (waks!! ilmu gw ga ada apa2nyaaaaa...)

WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
Painter song by Norah Jones (... gw paint apaan pas wedding gw coba? I'll paint my life... hehehe)

WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
You've got a friend in me -Toy story (1995) (... ck. ck ck... Yayyy!!! ppl got a friend in meeee.. :P)

WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
Kubawa korban syukur.. (ano. suka memberi?)

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?
semusim (... i dun even know what's the lyrics)

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
Dentro un Altro Si - Il Divo

WHAT'S THE WORST THING THAT COULD HAPPEN?
Yesterday's once more (... well.. yeah. dat would be a bad one.. )

HOW WILL YOU DIE?
Jalan hidup orang benar.. (... yea yea.. lihatlah nti gimana)

WHAT IS THE ONE THING YOU REGRET?
May the words of my mouth - Tim huges.. (>.<)

WHAT MAKES YOU LAUGH?
Unchained melody - Clay Aiken..

WHAT MAKES YOU CRY?
Found - Hilsong (no comment.)

WILL YOU EVER GET MARRIED?
Es Mi Mujer - Tito rojas.. (wow! Salsa!!! still.. doesn't answer the question)

DOES ANYONE LIKE YOU?
Holy is the Lord - Chris Tomlin.. (ermm.. God does ^^)

IF YOU COULD GO BACK IN TIME, WHAT WOULD YOU CHANGE?
Talk to me.. (shout to ppl to do that, i guess?:P)

WHAT HURTS RIGHT NOW?
More than life - Hilsong (why should it???)

WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?
Baby can I hold you tonight - BoyZone. (o.O)

Pesan Moral: THis is just for fun!!! And is an absolute nonsense..

Number? No.. not todayy...

*merinding*
...
Hola semuaaa... ^^

gimana kabare? I hope u are all goooood...
well.. buat post yang kali ini, gw mau cerita about the importance of context dalam membedakan arti nomer..

why?
now u see...
ada 3 gambar dibawah.. ketiga2nya tu berhubungan dengan nomer kan? but then, they have three different meanings..
-> yang ini klo u dial nomer telepon orang..

-> yang ini nomer meja..

OR

-> yang ini definitely nomer lotto..

Nah, they are all numbers. Aren't they??

Nah.. the new issue is.. Kenapa tiba2 gw mw nulis tentang ini?
answer:
hal ini diawali pada suatu hari cerah nan indah di Sydney.. TT_TT *sigh*

Pada suatu hari nan indahh (ehem.. last Sunday), gw n temen2 gereja gw pegi lunch.. pada awalnya, kita berniat buat makan di restoran Austria yang ada di suburb di deketnya leichardt..
but then, since it turned out that the restaurant was closed (every Sunday), kita pegi ke leichardt buat lunch.. waktu itu, kita bingung banget mau makan di resto mana..

so, abis muter2 milih2 resto, kita makan di bar italia..

gw mesen makanan.. and the convo continued this way..


me: "Erm.. can I have a number?"
TheGe-erGuyBehindTheCashRegisterer (TGGBTCR): "what? my number? Nooo... no. Not today." geleng2*
me: ??????? *bengong* "hah? Nononononoo.. I mean, the number. For my orders. The table number.." *nunjuk bon pesenan gw*
TGGBTCR:"o, oooooo.." *kekna baru connect* "nope. We will know straight away that it's your orders and we will give it to u." *nunjuk kepalanya dengan pede*
me: "oh. ok". *berasa dodol karena disangka minta nomer telpon orang* lalala... *kaburrrr (with my mocca ofcoz)*

u seeeeeeeeeee????? huhuhuhu... gw disangka nanyain nomer telepon diaaa!!!! Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaarghhh!!!!! Tidakkk!!!!
mukanya cakep aja kaga. Enak diliatpun enggak! *merinding*
lagian jg gw uda ada co gitu. ngapain jg gw minta no telp co ga dikenal??? *yaikks!!!*
tapi ada satu hal yang jelas.. dalem ati gw, gw mencak2 ga keruan karena gw (mebbe) bakal disangka desperet buat nyari kenalan co ama orang2 di restonya (padahal kagaaaaa). Cehhhh!!!! huh!

Pesan Moral: I have no idea. ermm.. to avoid this, mebbe we can start by finding out which restaurant doesn't use numbers for the food orders? :P Or, we can kasi sumbangan cotton bud ke orang2 yang kita ajakin ngomong. It might be a good start. >.<
PS: Context is important!!!!

Inga.. Inga!!!! cap kaki kebo!!!! *????*

Hola semuaaaaaaaaaa.. huehehehehe...

it's friday (again) yayyy!!!! Summer school will end soon (and so my long long weekends...)

anywayyy... gw pengen cerita ttg cerminan perasaan hati gw kemaren yang bercampur aduk bak es cendol.. ato es alpukat.. ato es teler.. haaaaaaaahhh.. jd pengen makan..

O well, but, eniweis, kemaren gw menjalani hari uni gw seperti biasa.. lalu jalan2 ama temen2 gereja gw yang happened to be my neighbours across the street. It was fun, dan inti kata, gw menikmati hari gw..

yang kaga "like usual" adalah, dipagi2 hari, gw tiba2 ada preferences pengen denger lagunya casting crowns di ipod gw which is like once in a blue moon. (padahal tadinya jazz.. n tiba2 banget gw pengen ganti lagu.. pokoke, craving lagu casting crowns gw harus dipenuhi!!! well.. begitu si yang ada di otak gw..). Herannya adalah, gw bukan tipe orang yang biasanya bakal pilih lagu2 yang mau gw denger berdasarkan cd. Biasanya, gw cuma puter itu lagu dari A ampe Z (sebodo tuing mau genre apa. Well.. kadang2 gw cuma milih antara genre jazz or christian songs.. But, biasanya gw puter lagu berdasar urutan abjad).

dan tiba2 terdengar lagu "If We Are The Body" yang liriknya:

If We Are The Body

It's crowded in worship today
As she slips in
Trying to fade into the faces
The girls' teasing laughter is carrying farther than they know
Farther than they know

CHORUS
But if we are the Body
Why aren't His arms reaching
Why aren't His hands healing
Why aren't His words teaching
And if we are the Body
Why aren't His feet going
Why is His love not showing them there is a way
There is a way

A traveler is far away from home
He sheds his coat
And quietly sinks into the back row
The weight of their judgmental glances tells him that his chances
Are better out on the road

CHORUS
But if we are the Body
Why aren't His arms reaching
Why aren't His hands healing
Why aren't His words teaching
And if we are the Body
Why aren't His feet going
Why is His love not showing them there is a way

Jesus paid much too high a price
For us to pick and choose who should come
And we are the Body of Christ

Chorus (2x)
If we are the body
Why aren't His arms reaching
Why aren't His hands healing
Why aren't His words teaching
And if we are the body
Why aren't His feet going
Why is His love not showing them there is a way

Jesus is the way

Kata2nya baguuussss...
lagunya juga enak.. makanya dengan wajah penuh satisfaction bak doggy dibawah... itu lagu gw serep dalem2..

it's a very good reminder for us buat evangelise ppl..

dan yah, tiba2 teringat klo 2 minggu yang lalu, gw jd MC buat tema friendship evangelism yang ended up berubah total. But, as i listened to this song, gw tiba2 pengen nyanyiin ini lagu di pemuda. But, kata2nya lebi kek buat lagu panggung instead of puji2an. So, gw cancel niat gw. Tapi, kapan yang the next time gw tugas lagi? hmmm.. it's impossible klo gw tugas lagi (secara ada 3 mc so far)..

But then, out of the blue, gw tiba2 bisa ga percaya ama pemikiran gw diatas. So, gw jadi ragu2 n mikir: "sabtu ini sapa yang mc yak?" padahal biasanya gw inget kapan gw mc, makanya ga peduli lagi..
hehehehe.. yah, like usual.. saya orangnya clumsy2 pelupa gitu..dan uda lupa total ama jadwal tugas..

So, pas malemnya, gw tanya ama co ccku yang bikin jadwal. gw nanya whether he is the MC for this saturday.. and he told me klo dia ga tugas sama sekali di bulan febuari. So, that leaves the conclusion klo gw yang tugas. (as yang MC mg lalu ga mungkin mc lagi minggu ini. It's too much!)

Well, at the beggining, i know that gw baru aja ditugasin 2 mg lalu. makanya i tot gw bakal tugas lagi minggu depan or bbrp mg lagi. as soon as I reached the conclusion part, kalang kabut bangetd gw buat ngurusin lagunya..
Apalagi, pemusik gw cm ada 1 (gitar) n ga ada pianis. so, i was like: "????" n pas gw ngomong2 lagi ama the onli pemusik i have, ternyata di hari dia tugas, dia mau pindahan rumah. Waaks!!!! So, berbekal tekad yang kuat (dan ketidak sadaran klo uda jem setenga 12 malem), gw telpon temen gw yang bisa maen piano yang ternyata uda bobo.. (maapkan saya temaaaaaaaaaannnnnn.. huhuhhuuuu.. didn't mean to bother ur beauty sleep.. berkatmu besar di surga d.. ) dan yayyy!!! dia mau jadi pemusik darurat gw!!! Wooooohooooo!!!! *joget jogettt*

ehem..
Kesiapan mental gw belon kelar.

o well.. but enihow, Thanks God banget karena gw sadar klo gw tugas sabtu ini.. klo gw ga sadar klo gw tugas, there will be no pemusik, no mc, no singer, no etc etc etc.. and I'll probably be late to pemuda (karena mau jalan2 etc etc.. hhehehehe). well.. cara Tuhan ngingetin kita ttg hal2 kok lucu jg ya? hehehe..

Pesan Moral: ehem.. always check and remember u'r schedule? i mean, for whatever it is.. hehehehe...

ehem.. well.. gw sadar si klo judul entry yang ini ga nyambung banget ama isi post kali ini. maapkan daku kalo judul post kali ini mengundang pikiran yang tidak2. e.g: mengingat menurut tradisi cina sekarang taon kebo, makanya jadi maniak kebo gitu.. well.. use u'r imagination and be creative!!! Yoshh!!