Hola semuaaaaaa... akhirnya saya ada holiday juga!!! Setelah 6 minggu disiksa oleh summer school.. hiksss.. Seballll kenapa libur saya sedikiiittttt???
o well.. inilah hidup. lahir, fase2 balita, masuk TK, SD, SMP, SMA, Uni, Kerja, Merit, jadi Ortu, jadi opa oma, lalu ketemu Tuhannnn.. <- kasusnya kalo kita dikasi kesempetan buat idup kira2 80 taonan laaaa... or 70? assume kita idup ampe 70 taon d, 80 ketuaan.
eniweis, kalo gw idup ampe 70, berarti idup gw uda lewat (1/3 X-5). rasanya cepet juga yakk?
waktu masi kecil, rasanya kok gw ga gede2. But gitu uda masuk SMA, rasanya waktu mule berlari. GItu masuk foundation, waktu seolah-olah ngebut. Gitu masuk uni, mentang2 ga kena surat tilang, waktu langsung nancep gas ampe gitu gw meninjau ulang idup gw, gw bertanya2 sendiri: "gimana ceritanya gw bisa ada ditempat gw sekarang yakkk?" I want more time!!! I want more days in a year!!! Make it double!! Make it triple!! Make it quadruple!!! Aaaaaaaarghhh!!!!!!
Salah satu hal yang bikin gw berasa tua adalah sejarah. Misalnya, kerusuhan 1998. rasanya kek baru bulan lalu, but ternyata uda 10 taon yang laluuU!!!!!!!!! Aaaaarghhh!! Rasanya gak percaya bangethh!!! gw yang dulunya ga peduli waktu, sekarang rasanya sayang banget ama waktu. Andaikan dulu gw ga buang2 waktu dengan hal2 berguna.... bies, kalo waktu uda lewat ga bakal bisa balik lagi!!! Dan terkadang gw kurang sensitive akan keadaan sekitar. so, things went wrong.. and for now, i really can't do anything much to change them. o well.. kalo gw tinjau ulang idup gw, rasanya gw itu banyak kekurangannya. Dan gw sering merasa kurang puas ama idup gw.
The point is,
well.. i didn't really realize that being not content ama idup gw is a wrong thing to do until gw di"JLEB!!!" lewat BS gw sabtu lalu. BSnya ttg character, this week's BS is talking about contentment. Many of us are not content with our current condition or situation. Sampe ada pepatah yang bilang: "rumput tetangga SELALU lebih hijau". Well... is it true? kalo dalem idup anda, anda pernah bilang andaikan, or jika saya dulu tidak.... maka saya pasti..., or kata apa saja yang satu spesies, berarti dikau tidak puas akan suatu hal.
In psalm 103 1-13, king David reminds us that we should be praising God for all of His goodness to us. He forgives all our sins and redeemed us by his blood. Also, He is compassionate and gracious, slow to anger and abounding in love. He won't always accuse nor will he harbor his anger forever. so great is his love for those who fear him.
We, in our sinful nature, won't be able to EARN salvation. (Gomen kalo inggris gw ngaco. hehehehe). We can't gain salvation by ourselves. We RECEIVE salvation from Jesus Christ by his love and grace. He has been very gracious to us. Why shouldn't we be content? We should be thankful for our salvation that he gave us. We should be thankful that he love us. We should be thankful that we worth MORE than we think. Maybe some of us think that our worth depends on how ppl think and see us. It is NOT true. Altho we are worthless for some ppl, God loves us and he always do.
Yang bikin gw kaget, pas sate di malem harinya, renungan gw mirip jg (from ecclesiastes 2:1-11. about being content so then we can show our gratitude with heartfelt thankfulness). Lalu, renungan gw di hari minggu malem juga miripp!!!!! Bedanya, renungan minggu ngambil ayat dari psalm 9:1-14. in these verses, king David expresses his heartfelt praise to the Lord by telling us to praise Him, review all the things He has done to us, rejoice, be glad and sing, acknowledge that He defends us and we should go to Him for refuge, talk about what He has done to us, and receive His mercy and rejoice in His salvation. By realizing what He has done for us, our heart will automatically feel grateful and thankful. And therefore, we can reconnect with God in our worship and praise.
Gw beneran KAGET BANGETHHH!!!! Wow. gw amazed banget sih pas gw sadar klo gw ampe 3 kali digituin. i mean, diingetin ama God biar gw belajar to be content with my life. Well, u know kalo nci gw seorang yang sukses, bokap gw juga. sedangkan gw itu so so aja. Jadinya, gw sering mikir: "knp gw berbeda?"
Diingetin ampe 3 kali berturut2.. well.. i think this is not a coincidence.
So, still merasa rumput tetangga lebih hijau???
Jangan compare2 ama orang laen ah. It's a bad habbit!!!
Pesan Moral: You are rich when you are satisfied with what you have and who you are.
